When your eyes meet mine, I lose simple skills.

I'm laying on his chest with the music playing. Stroking my hand down his back during the best part of the song. "I'd like to tell you all I want is now-" and hold tighter. He joins his hands around my waist. Inhale.. and ever so slowly, exhale. I breath in the night air, the smell of his dewy skin, and imagine, if only for a moment, that he is mine.

THIS- is summer?

So- school let out and summer was looking great. My best guy friend was becoming well.. more, and instead of toiling over semester exams in the evenings, i was boating or swimming or shopping or just hanging out. I really thought this was the summer i had been waiting for. Then, it just kind of fell apart. My best guy friend (or maybe more?) is acting really strangely. We BOTH confessed our feelings for eachother, and now.. it's like he goes out of his way to not treat me like a girl. Before, we would hold hands or jokingly caress eachother. now.. i'd be surprised if he looked at me for more then 2 seconds. What is his deal? I know he's not very experienced.. but really??. I'm sick of being the man in this "relationship". He needs to realize that i really do like him. He is SO SO SO insecure. But, he's so funny and awkward and freckly and wonderful.. i wish he'd realize that i like him for him and i don't care that he's not a jock or a ladies man or even a deep thinker.. He's honest and sweet and caring and he'd never hurt me. But by not doing anything, he's hurt me more than he knows. He's a part time lover and a full time friend and i'm ok with that, i guess.. but i need to know if it's going anywhere. i can't waste my time on a dream anymore.. I love him, as a friend and more. I just wish he'd risk something.. Anything- for the chance that we could become us..<3